Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Joey McIntyre 2


Joey McIntyre
Originally uploaded by Joey McIntyre
I Love this pic of Mr. Mac!!!

Well I shot myself...

I did it, I didnt think I could but I was abble to inject my self! Not once but twice now!
So here is where we are:
Took Provera for 10 days starting on October 15th
AF showed on November 1st
On November 3rd I went in for my first visit with Ultra sound and blood draw. This was so gross in that I was in the middle of full flow!! ICK!!! any way... the lining was at 5mm (she said I had a bit more bleeding to go) then she drew some blood. I got a call in the afternoon, she said that my estrogen levels were at 37 which she said was Fabulous! This made me feel a bit better.
Well last night we did the first injection... Omg I was so scared that I was going to screw it up!  Anyway we were able to get it together and I shot my self!
Enter in the weird side effects. With in 5 min. I couldnt focus, with in 20 min I was feeling queezy so I went to bed. I woke up this morning and it hurt to move. I could feel the swelling in my ovaries. that lasted until this afternoon when I ate some salty foods.
well here it is a bit after 9:00 tonight and I cant focus so this post may be a bit out of sorts.
and I go bad to the doc on friday! Here is hoping!!!

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Thursday, October 15, 2009

The first day of the rest of my life?

Today could possibly be the first day of the rest of my life, so here is hoping!


I had an appointment today for training on how to give the injections, which yes I will be giving to myself!! In this discussion we went over the following things:

• I have to stop ALL exercise. (The reason for this being that with this super stimulation cycle my ovaries will grow and swell and will lift up against my pelvis. So if I go jogging, dancing, and any activity really my ovaries could rupture! It’s hard enough for me to get pregnant as it is, I don’t need to lose an ovary and cut my slim chances in half.)

• I will more than likely find out that if I am pregnant over the thanks giving holiday (This being that I have started the provera today. I will take this for the next 10 days, then about 3-5 days later my period will show up. Now for the gross part! On day 3 of my period I will go in for a vaginal ultrasound and blood work to check my estrogen levels. Now I believe on that day I will start on the Gonal F these would be my injections, I will do that for roughly 2 weeks and then go on with 2 more vaginal ultrasounds and more blood work. Once they see that my follicles are large enough I will take one final injection of ovidrel which will send the little eggs down the tubes. Then we go in for the Intrauterine Insemination and then we wait. Wait two weeks until we find out if we are preggers.)

• Twins or Triplets are a VERY REAL possibility, hell even more then that are possible. Look at Jon and Kate+8! (http://bluegrassfertilitycenter.com/ovariansuperstimulation.htm Multiple gestation - If a pregnancy is achieved, about 70% of the time there is only 1 baby, however, about 24% of the time there are twins, about 5% of the time there are triplets, and less than 1% of the time quadruplets or more are present. While many couples are happy to have twins, the complications of pregnancy increase with the number of babies present. The most serious complication of multiple gestation is preterm labor with delivery of premature infants. Severe pre-maturity can result in the death or brain damage of a child. With proper prenatal care, the risks of premature labor can be lessened but not eliminated. Every effort is made to increase the chances for pregnancy while minimizing the chances for multiple births.)

• That I will have to have 15 injections over the next month!

• Kentucky is not a selective termination state. Meaning that should I get pregnant with say 8 kids that they would council me on selective termination and I would then have to go across state lines.

This is all becoming VERY real very fast. It’s scary and exciting all at the same time. I will keep updating as I can.

Friday, October 09, 2009

Getting there...


How do you get where you are going?
This sounds like a simple enough question, but amazingly enough it’s not a simple question at all.

This week DH and I decided that it is time to head back to the RE (Reproductive Endocrinologist). This in turn has made me do a little soul searching and reflecting on the past few years. For instance what has led us to this decision and how did we get here? Well if you will humor me I will attempt a brief rundown of what has led us here.

Let’s start at the beginning December 1997, I was 16 going on 17 (and now I digress in to a little music from the Sound of Music) and I met my husband, being the only girl in an all boy computer class. I was a junior in High School and he was a senior. He was clearly the brains in the class and was kind enough to let me cheat off of him because I had no fricken clue what I was doing. Fast forward to the end of that school year, Nick and I were still going strong, and had joked about kids and marriage and all of that. Now I look back and think “really? Were we really talking about marriage that young?” Anyway at the time I swore that I wanted nothing to do with kids and did not want them for any reason. We continued to date through college and marriage became a real possibility, we were then married in September of 2004.

This brings us to the sad part of our tale… The year or so of total and utter hell.

On mother’s day 2004 my mother told me that she had a brain tumor but that they were able to get rid of it as it was a benign tumor. Well I thought ok this is odd, it tore me up to think that my mother, my rock could ever be sick. Little did I know this was the beginning of the lies and the charade. I went on with life, Graduated from College with my BA in Telecommunications and went on to get married. Then on Mother’s day 2005 while out for dinner at Giuseppe’s Italian Restaurant I watched as her face fell and she tried to hide the effects of a stroke. (One very important thing to note here is I am an only child, of two only children, and while I wouldn’t say I was sheltered, I would say that I was protected. My mother would go to the ends of the earth to protect me and she knew that this information would kill me. So she lied and hid as much as humanly possible from me. Me not quite wanting to grow up ignored the signs.) My Father seeing what was going on had quite an urgency about him as he had my husband pay for the check and he went to run and get the car. I had no clue what was going on and thought all of this behavior to be quite odd. As we rushed down Nicholasville road I knew something else was wrong. We were heading to UK, a hospital that both of my parents would NEVER use because it seemed that any family member who went in, never came back.

After we got mom in to triage they started to ask questions and mom was not willing to speak with me in the room. So in an effort to get her help I left. I sat in the waiting room with no clue as to what was going on, fearing the worst. About an hour later my Dad came to me in the ER waiting room and told me my worst fear: That my mother who had been a lifelong smoker had stage 4 small cell cancer. That what we were seeing was the beginning of the end. That they had been lying to me since March of 2004 when she was diagnosed. (I must add that I have never in my life wanted to punch someone as bad as I wanted to punch my father in that moment.)

I went back and saw her and they released her that night and we went home. My father then poured me a shot of whiskey and I downed it like nothing before… trust me it didn’t help. That night my mother assured me that she was not going anywhere for a very long time, she was wrong. About a month later I moved in with my mother for the last week of her life at the Markey Cancer Center here at UK. I honestly could not believe that this was happening to me. Me a child who quite frankly had never had anything bad happen to her in her life.

This is when I fell in to a deep dark nasty depression. I had nothing to live for, not my father (who I tried to help as much as I could but I think he was in a much better place then I being that he much longer to come to terms with it.), not my husband who tried to help and God only knows why or how he stayed with me, not my dog Jack who was 16 years old, or my new puppy Ziggy. I refused to talk to a professional I couldn’t come to grips with the fact that I couldn’t deal with this myself.

Well about a month or so after Mom died my dog of 16 years passed away of old age. This would have been overly traumatic had I not just lost my mother. I was numb to anything that was going on.

Let’s move on to about a year later. Nick and I decided that it was time to try for kids. We were successful on our very first try! I got a positive test right away! I thought things were looking up for us. Only to find out that my grandmother on my mothers side was diagnosed with Small Cell Lung cancer as well also in stage 4. She died 11 months after my mother from the exact same thing. I also found out about a week or so after the funeral that I had an EPF (early pregnancy failure.)

I stayed in a funk for about 2 years. I got up, I went to work, I came home and slept. That was my life. Well I then was on a mission to help my family grow! There are so few of us to begin with, my depression evolved in to obsession with getting pregnant. I did research tried every home remedy went to OBGYNS the whole nine yards. My routine became go to work, come home and obsess and research how to get pregnant. I had a few miscarriages, and then went to see the RE Dr. Murray was wonderful she was kind, compassionate and full of hope! We did test, after test and discovered that I don’t ovulate regularly. This is nice in that I have about 2-3 periods a year. Not so nice in that I have no way to time and check my cycle!

We went through a few rounds of Clomid only to discover that I have a naturally thin uterine lining (this makes it hard for the little buggers to stick!). In the end I came away with I was getting old (27) and that we should work towards getting pregnant now! I was done with it all.

Enter in New Kids on the Block!

Now on January 27, 2008(my 27th birthday) People Magazine leaked a story that they were getting back together. Now my first thought was a chuckle and I moved on not giving it much thought. Then I went to NKOTB.com… where there was a little teaser and my interest peaked. Then the website came up, and the official announcement went out. This my friends was my release! I was able to relive my childhood! To think back on happier times! I went on road trips with just the girls, girls who I had never met before but would go on to become my friends. I had never done an all girls road trip this was a whole new liberating experience for me… before the thought of being on a Chicago Subway at 3am would have terrified me! But you know what I lived though it! So I went on 7 NKOTB trips over the next year it was one of the best times of my life!!

Which brings us to now, and how I got to where I am.

I went and saw the RE on Wednesday. He is so very hopeful that this new round with the Gonal F with be the trick and seems to think that we will have luck and be pregnant by December. This is my Christmas wish.

If you have stuck with me this long, I commend you! Well done!!

I hope to blog more on my NK adventures and my progress with growing our family.

I know some of this post is disjointed, it just like me is here, there and everywhere.

Tip of the Week #10


Tip # 10: The best fans are the ones that need to be sedated.

Thursday, October 01, 2009

Tip of the Week #9


Tip # 9: Never eat your hot dog on both ends, it’s a lot like burning your candle on both ends, only with whole lot more mustard.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Off to the tea cups

Gotta get through the airport first.



-- Post From My iPhone

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Tip of the week#8



# 8: A sure sign of achievement is surpassing the success of your childhood heroes.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Tip of the Week #7


Tip#7: Do what your mother tells you: Hold each other’s hand while crossing the street and for goodness sakes, put on a fresh pair of clean underwear just in case you were to get hit by mob of screaming fans that would tear off your clothes.

Friday, September 11, 2009

Woman in cell, playing solitaire

I love the George Eastman House collection on Flickr, I could ramble through it all day!

Flickr

This is a test post from flickr, a fancy photo sharing thing.

September 11, 2009

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Done with this

I'm consolidating to one blog follow the trials here: http://jsprincess.blogspot.com/

A New begining

I had abandoned this blog in favor of plaid girl on the other side. But long story short I'm back!!! Rock on!

Tip of the Week #6



Tip # 6- You know you’ve made it when you watch yourself as a Saturday morning cartoon character. Just hope that your cartoon doesn’t look better then you!

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Tip of the Week #5



Tip # 5- If you are a white male, never sit down in a subway car. You’ll look like a pansy. Standing up makes you look tough.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Tip of the Week #4


TIP # 4: Best way to ensure you win the hearts of 9-11 year old girls for the rest of their lives: Be pro-American, anti- drug super stars and do it all…. Of course, for the children.

Tip of the Week #3


# 3- When in doubt- more Hairspray is always better!

Tip of the Week #2



Another tip for you…dress for success!

Tip of the Week #1



How about I give you a tip of the week??

Jim's Tip's of the week

SO... In my job I send out little techie tips of the week to everyone that I work with, well "Jim" sends me back my own personal NKOTB tip... thought I whould share them here...

Monday, July 27, 2009

Its that time...

since I am in mid post I think I am writing a novel I thought I would do a quick update with the 15 random songs ready? here we go!

1. Venus - Bananarama
2. Siamsa - Lord of the Dance soundtrack
3. Where you are - Danny Wood
4. If U Seek Amy - Brit Brit
5. Too Many Walls - Cathy Dennis
6. Consequence Free - Great Big Sea
7. Out of My Head - Fastball
8. Microphone fiend - Eric B. & Rakim
9. Walk on Water - Aerosmith
10. Don't Cry (Spanish) - Jordan Knight
11. Blaze of Glory - Jon Bon Jovi
12. The Way That I Loveed You - Joey McIntyre
13. Man In The Mirror - Michael Jackson
14. Anniversary - Tony Toni Tone
15.Love Song - Joey McIntyre

Friday, May 22, 2009

The Library of Congress' photostream


Amazing, amazing, amazing... if you think the internet is dead check out the Library of Congress' photostream on Flicker! It is amazing!!!

Traveling again this summer

I thought that I might put a little blog up about my upcoming travels in order to force my self to blog about them later :)

Atlanta GA May 27-30, 2009


Well this one was a planed yet unplanned trip. I booked my flight about a month ago to go and see my favorite band of all time New Kids on the Block and my aunt who lives there as well. I got a great deal at $160.oo for a round trip ticket from Cincy to ATL. Well about a week ago I find out that they have pushed the date back a week. So I tried to move my ticket to the next week to find out that it will cost $150.00 to change the ticket. Which I am not paying!! SOOOO... I am heading to have a nice weekend with my aunt head to the zoo and do some other fun things!! I think it will be fun, I haven't see her since December. I will try to blog and I know I will be twittering!



Atlanta GA June 3-6, 2009




This trip is for the First NKOTB concert of the Full Service Tour!! Can not wait! I am sad that 2 of the girls of the Lou Crew wont be able to go :( but 3 of us will be and we will be leading by example. See the next post for Leading by Example! I will be twittering and blogging from the arena on this one!!

Possible Trip to Raleigh, NC June24-25,2009

This is a work trip still waiting on details.

Cincinnati, OH June 27, 2009

Yup NKOTB again this time close to home! I have 5* for this one and am really excited. This is also the 4 year anniv. of my Mom's death and I always leave town on that day. I cant think of a better place to be!!

Washington, DC July 13-18, 2009
Heading to DC for the yearly Blackboard World Conference. Whoo hoo... (Insert Sarcasm here.)

Possible Trip Duke University, NC August 1-7, 2009
Again work related.. not many details.

Disney World September 23-29, 2009
Going for our 5 year wedding anniv. YAY!!!

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Best Joe Vid from the Cruise

Random thoughts

I think that Tuesdays are going to be random thought days.
So here are the random thoughts that have passed through my brain today...

1. Saw the new moon poster today, I am excited. Even though I was not really impressed with twilight I have a lot of hope for this one.

2. I am really nervous about the home equityloan that we applied for yesterday SO much is riding on that.

3. Still don't know how I feel about the cruise... Some had fun some didn't I think as with everything it is what you make of it.

4. Totaly jazzed about heading to Atlanta the next 2 weeks.

5. I have got to do some laundry.

So tell me what has passed through your brain today?



-- Post From My iPhone

Friday, May 15, 2009

Hmmm I want to go sailing...



















The New Kids on the Block, from left, Danny Wood, Joey McIntyre, Donnie Wahlberg, Jordan Knight and Jonathan Knight, pose on the cruise ship Carnival Imagination, Friday, May 15, 2009, in Miami. The group, which reunited after 14 years for a tour and new album in May 2008, will kick off summer performance schedule with the sold out three-day concert cruise to the Bahamas on Friday. (AP Photo/Damian Grass)

I want to be on this boat... sort of... from what I hear the crazies have already been in full force but damn.. look at those 5 pieces of Man Meat!!!!
HOLY HELL!!!!

Monday, May 04, 2009

Quick mobile blog


So here I am blogging from the bed... Just wanted to say that bootcamp kicked my ass... Can't wait for more!!!!

-- Post From My iPhone

Whee pics!

Dancing at the poor mans derby party



-- Post From My iPhone

Friday, May 01, 2009

OK so the catch up post

As I am sure you can tell from the last post on here the IUI did not take. :(
It appears as though I have a naturally thin lining. So the clomid I took with the last IUI just made it even thinner. SOOO... we were told that we would have to move on to injections :( with brings the out of pocket cost to $3000.00 a month... OUCH!!! So we went on hold for a while and have been there for a bit.
I went off on my New Kids on the Block adventures... check out PLAID GIRL for more on those adventures!!!
These Adventures will be over for the time being in June... Nick and I hope to get a home equity loan to fix up the house and then to move on to the $3000.00 a month... YIKES!! So it may be another year but I am slowly becoming ok with that. :)
More to come!

Need to update

Will soon... bottom line... Still no baby... will update soon I promise

Lots to catch up on

So many stories and tales to catch up on... will be updating and posting soon!!!

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Really?

So here I sit in a faculty meeting, and it never fails to amaze me, the amount of stupidity that thrives in the world of acidemia!
We have sat and discussed the wording of 1 sentence for 15 min. Now I don't know what is worse:
1. That we have 24 grown women who can't agree on the wording of one sentence
2. That we live in a world that has to be SO exact that we worry this much about it.

Just a mobile thought...


-- Post From My iPhone

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Like ZOMG


Hey kids... I'm living out my fantasy I am on to show #5 next week will do my best to blog from the road!

-- Post From My iPhone

Sunday, March 01, 2009

Damn iPhone

Quick blog... I HATE that I love my iPhone! It's a damn mac product and I love it.... Expect more blogs now that I can do of from the road! Wheeeeee


-- Post From My iPhone